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| i am so glad i came back to town this weekend. sure, i'm gonna pay for it because it's gonna be a bitch writing this paper, but that's a small price to pay to get my head right.
i've been successful on the prowl. wildly successful to a level matching only fantasy. it's time for me to put that part of my life on hold, and focus on the goals at hand. i need to get into law school, obviously, but there are other smaller goals that i need to achieve. i need to finish my apartment and make it the best and most comfortable home it can be. i need to fix my diet and my exercise. most importantly, it's time for me to grow the fuck up. i'm not a kid anymore, and it's time for me to be a man instead of acting like a man.
by be a man, i mean it's time to step away from this social fun party thing. with pretty much everything done and wrapped up with ifg, it's time for me to pocket my profits and get to work on the next project immediately. i'll still let of steam, smoke, chill, and shoot the shit, but it's time to change the focus from "having fun" to "handling your shit". of course, i intend to play and have fun for my whole life, but there's a stretch of time coming where i just need to buckle down and do what i need to do. $34.50
i've been thinking about the things i want to do, specifically in terms of the skills and experiences i want to amass. i think that skills and experience are going to be more important to my overall happiness and success than material or career-based factors, at least in some degree, and so today i started kicking around the idea of joining the police for a while. i think that will be a great experience- i'll learn the tricks and tools of the trade. this will be useful obviously for getting out of scrapes with the law, but i'd also learn the command and compliance tricks used to intimidate people and trick them into confessions. i'm sure these skills would be useful as a lawyer. furthermore, experience on the law enforcement side will give me good material to write a personal statement, give me good recommendations, and help me stand out above the pack. after all, my lsat scores are good for 5 years. why not? and i can use it to pick up chicks too.
otherwise, i really really need to get my ass in gear regarding law school. adam's already finished his personal statement, and i haven't even really started it. i'm gonna need to get started on that on monday. tomorrow, my priority is to finish this fucking paper (god i hate school) and then go over my lsat and see what kind of improvement i can make and where i should start working in order to get the best possible score in december.
i was about to say i wish i could get someone to take care of my cats for me, but i realized that isn't true. i love those guys, and they're a pleasant diversion when i'm working. hopefully they'll help me be even more focused by providing me with short breaks of affection and violence.
okay, this is what i'm thinking for the next few days.
-this paper needs to be in on monday. i think i'm gonna pretend i'm still in hs and just fucking man through it. double time the fuck out of it and see how strong my hustle still is.
-i need to fight a ta for more points on another paper. this needs to be done asap.
-i need to relocate my office to the first floor of my apartment, and convert the second floor to a master bedroom. this will allow me to get up in the morning, brush my teeth, shower, fix breakfast, and get to work, all while physically travelling in one direction only, like an assembly line of swag.
-im going to investigate another rec first thing in the morning sunday, and hopefully have the request fired off by the end of the day. no matter what, that request needs to be fired off by the end of the day on monday.
-the first draft of my personal statement should be done by wednesday.
-resuming my martial arts training is a low priority. as fun as it would be to fight chris chen, like i said above it's time for me to be a man. as long as i create a good diet and lifting plan (3x45min or so, fuelled by gakic to make it efficient) then i should be able to take care of my body. i might roll a little bit, and i'd love to get back in the gym, but i'm not going to make that a big priority this week.
-it would be foolish of me to quit my job at aero. decent pay, easy work, low hours. just right for me. come on chinaman man the fuck up.
-i need to go grocery shopping. stores are running low.
oh yeah i saw fedor fight today. fucking spectacular experience. much much better than skydiving.
i wonder where im going to get the initiative to do all this shit. luckily i have vicky. if i had addie too then i'd be set. i wonder how people can do this shit naturally.
i'm entering a contractionary phase in my social life. for years, i've been expanding and laying down roots. now i'm a senior potentially on his way out of town, and it's time to see which of my friends in madison are the ones i should invest effort into maintaining a relationship with, and which ones will not be worth my time. i'll still give ppl chances and sniff out opportunities of course, but it's becoming very important to see which relationships will maintain their value.
sleeping late for years is catching up to me. just another part of my lifestyle i'm gonna need to work on.
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| -i've been meaning to make this update for a long, long time, but have been slow getting around to actually doing so
-i decided to make an entry every week, to chronicle what happened over the week at the very least
-i've got an exam thurs and hw due in the morning
-i have class at 11
-remember when getting 5-6 hrs of sleep a night was no big deal?
-man things would have been different if i weren't an honors student
-or would they?
-explaining my beliefs to laymen is very frustrating
-their adherence to principle is alien to me
-it's dogmatic
-principles are just an excuse to stick to your guns, born out of being on the weak end of your arguments and trying to win at all costs
-i really miss ifg but in a tolerable and non destructive way. im pleased with this.
-i should make friends with smart white ppl
-ryan richter is prob the smartest white guy i know
-i hardly have any white male friends... that isnt true at all actually
-i need to meet more ppl like graham r
-i started working at aero. i want to quit i've been working for like a month. dentist girl says she will /f r if i quit with an excuse less than "someone died and im too torn up"
i think that's a bit ridic and i'll tell her so. she's being a dumbass. in the end, i dont care enough to stick with a job for months just as a favor to her. she helped me out a bit, but there's no deal. this was given to me as a gift... do i owe it to her? i suppose that excuse isnt terrible, but it's not something i would say. that's my issue- the dishonesty of it.
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| Key points to remember when fighting dogs:
1. They have teeth. As such, treat it like a knife fight - you are going to bleed, so you have to be ready to do incredibly violent things so as not to die. Use a knife if you've got it, use a gun if you've got it, and be ready to do something really mean when you drop those, because you will.
2. Generally, you have the weight advantage. Use it. you only have to pin them for a second to get a grip on some part of them you can twist until it breaks.
3. Their joints are built for running. This means A. Don't give your back, i.e. run away, because the dog WILL catch you and will now have you from behind, which as we all know means you're fucked and B. Their joints are not as flexible as yours, nor do they posses thumbs. Ever seen a dog spread its front legs out to the side like a little canine Jesus? No, you haven't, because they can't. If you can get both of your hands on one foreleg, you can literally break that leg at the joint by twisting. You will get bitten, but if you can get up afterwards, you will then be able to outrun him. Dogs are also made afraid by the thought that they are being ripped limb from limb, and that tilts their response away from "fight" and towards "flight."
Don't go for the eyes, you will get your thumbs bitten off. They do not grow back.
As for fighting lions, it is not advisable, as they are more flexible than dogs and generally posses a substantial weight advantage. Best defense against lions is to not look tasty. Defense against manatees is similar - don't look like soft water vegetation.
I'm actually trying to picture what a manatee attack would look like. Insert mom/ex-wife joke here. | | |
| these logic games are punishing me. why cant i score over 70% on these pos games?
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| i am incredibly pleased to at last have an asian friend in madison.
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