| why is every day such trash
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| i need to man the fuck up and reframe this properly again. i need to think of this girl as a coup and an accomplishment, not mourn the loss of future relationships. there's no sense in crying because a fun vacation is over.
eyes forward, chinaman
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| today's been no good. as much as i want to wallow in the shitty feeling, i'll do my best to try and articulate the causes of this trouble in the hopes of identifying it and preventing it.
-i wasted time last night and woke up at 2. i felt kinda lazy and slow all day, despite my 2 rounds of shadowboxing. i summoned a delicious steak and shrimp torta for breakfast, but it just kinda made me tired.
-im being pressured by my econ 4-something group to do some bullshit. it won't be too hard for me to do, but i hate them so much that the thought of doing anything for them rankles. i suppose tomorrow i'll just go to the business library and bang it out.
-professors are not doing their part.
-my cousin asked me for $200. her credit blows, so i tried to help her out without actually loaning her the money.
-i miss that indo girl. i know it sounds bitchly, but sometimes a man just needs a fuckin hug. or a lapdance.
-i didnt work out today. i dont know if my body misses the endorphines, if it's malnourished from working so hard and not being fed enough, or if i'm going through withdrawal from the energy supplements, but maybe that contributes to the low morale.
-i sat down to work on lsats today and my mind flat out rejected it. similarly there's no way im gonna be able to work on my personal statement right now.
i think tomorrow im gonna call addie and go to the business library to work. maybe i just need a change of scenery. im gonna go to bed soon and hopefully tomorow will be brighter.
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| my timeline is getting short
-i'm retaking the lsat in the beginning of december. i intend to log at least 3 sections a day, starting tomorrow.
-i'm going to fight the ta on monday.
-tomorrow, i go to meet with the profs to get my recommendations.
-i am behind in the application timetable. unfortunately there's nothing i can do about it right now other than try to hurry up. hopefully my app will be in by mid-to-late december.
-of course, school is getting in my way.
let's talk deadlines and action points.
-my group wants their stupid project done. fine. i'll give them something tomorrow. it will be shitty, but it will be done.
-i drafted a solid outline of my personal statement already. i'll have a first draft done before bed sunday night.
-like i said, 3 sections/day. this works out nicely since there are 3 types of sections on the lsat. god i can't wait to rape this test.
-i need to speak with a real pre law advisor. unfortunately the pre law advising office here is trash.
tomorrow morning i'm gonna do law school apps. it's pretty low priority. i also need to book a hotel to go to vegas next weekend. fuckin a. i can't keep throwing these days away.
no sense moping. time for action. next semester will be easy... 9 credits or so.
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| im going to start waking up in the morning and working out. i want the endorphines to kick in during the daytime, instead of at night when they're useless.
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